Thursday, February 26, 2009
Subject: YAWN..
im gonna try what banessa does and write a blogspot everyday
=)


well i didnt write one yesterday because i had track practice (3:15-4:30) && hanged out with Kayla
<333
ahh Kayla, she reminds me of Steph, Annie and Natalie combined
cause she acts all fun like Steph ;; the best person ever for advice like Annie ;; && can be silly with girl hangout stuff like Natalie
maan i love hanging with her
shes basically the only girl i can hang out with around here!
cause i only trust her and Ashleii, yet Ashleii wont be down here in Lone Pine till summer
WHICH IS MONTHS AWAY!!!
=(

but yeah
i was at her place and noticed Melvis (Kayla's bestie and a good friend of mine too, but i barely see her O.o) and another dude named Billy (who apparently was a year 12 student when Gage and Jordan was 9th graders)
we just hanged at Kayla's place and was being all random with lighters, burining up stuff
then suddenly Charlie (i dunno how Kayla knows him, but yeah hes awesome) called up and was gonna crash
YET THE DEAL WAS he was gonna bring hookas
.....for those who dunno hookas, its like bong, but you smoke marajuana and all thats flavoured
so yeah, i didnt know it meant THAT but actually thought it was something like drinks
so i was all like "YEAH!! woo Charlie's awesome"
and we were waiting and all..
during the waiting Kayla and Melvis asked about me and Gage, i told them the situation which was that hes always hanging with his friends for a while, and they just said "well Manda your gonna be the same and always hang out with us!"
so now were plotting that after track i dont hang with him yet always go hang with them
and this whole talk was funny cause Billy was all like "yeah Amanda, go hang out and be lesvians with Kayla and Melvis" and we noticed a nice dancy song and we all just started sexy dancing XD
lol he was all....... "riiight" XD

well we waited for an hour and we got annoyed then suddenly Kayla got out this dye tattoo thing and was all like "OMG lets do this"!!
its a thing thats like a tattoo yet fades away in 3 weeks
i got one on my left wrist and on my chest where my heart is
ill post pictures up later here and show yah guys
and the arm was simple but when Kayla asked me on the chest she was all like "Amanda, STRIP!"
and in the background you can see Melvis going "YAY SEXY AMANDAS GONNA STRIP" and then you see Billy walking to the lounge room XD
i literally had to beexposing a little of my bra to do this.. very embarassing yet no one came.. had to wait like 20 minutes to dry
XD

Charlie finally came, but like after 2 minutes when he came Melvis got a text and suddenly her boyfriend Steven and his two friends Omar and Housaie (pronounced hoe-saye.... they're all mexicans xD) came and knew that there was gonna be hooka here and were all like "YEAH LETS SMOKE THAT SHIT!"
....you can tell the look on my face was suprised while Kayla noticed and laughed asking if i actually knew what hooka was while i truthfully said i didnt
everyone there just laughed at me and i just chased them around cause they're bumss
but yeah..
everyone went into Kayla's room sat down and had some marajuana flavoured guava as they all sucked in the hooka, which was like a jug filled with water that bubbled and on the top had the stuff and coal on top to get the -smoke- and all
it was quite funny to watch everyone do it cause they're all getting high and im just laughing at them
and yes during that time i STILL had to dry the tatto on my chest
(which by the way was a cloud with rain and thunder bolts coming out and in the cloud said "you'll always be my thunder")
so i was kinda exposing myself, i blocked most of it with Kayla's special blanket
.......darn Steven's friends were looking at me and speaking spanish
(in the end i asked Melvis and she said they were saying how white my body was XD she didnt wanna tell me what other stuff they said about me -pervy way-)

and during the time (which was an hour and a half) Kayla asked if i wanted to try
HECK i said no but in the end i just tried a small amount
and for all those who hate smoking
IT HURTS YOUR LUNGS/THROAT
it made me so dehydrated
and i only sucked in 2 seconds of it!
so yeah..
but i must say it was tasty
but i wouldnt smoke it cause of how dehydrated it makes me
since im already dehydrated enough

and thats what i basically did yesterday =D

as for today..
usual school
XD
and after school was track training
i did more work on shotput and discus
and i watched Gage and Kaoru race each other in the 100 meter relay
they were good
but Karou's a beast!
=O!!!
and after school.. i kinda broke me and Kayla's bet and hanged with Gage a little
cause after track practice he just came up to me and wanted to hang with me
yet even though i accepted i'd knew if he didnt plan the day somehow the day will be ruined and he will have to go home early
which indeed happened
we were watching The Illusionist
WHICH WAS AN AWESOME MOVIE!!
and when near the end his dad called yet he ignored it
and after the movie he heard the voicemail and his dad was pissed off at him which he should be angry at Nial for
-sigh-
and during when we were watching the movie everyone kept disturbing us
everyone in my family kept checking up on me!! and they never do this to Aleana or Kaoru BUT ME!!
and also we kept getting text messages..
i got a call from Lucia which i ignored
and yeah..
=,=
and when it finally finsihed around 6:30pm he had to go home
i could tell he was SO pissed cause he kept on not wanting to go and kept on holding my hand
also he kept on kissing me when i knew i couldnt continue
cause his dad was pissed which made him pissed so yeah..

but seriously.. why when we hang out does everyone have to disturb us?
i just really hate that.. and he obviously does too
cause today after like a week and a couple dayssince hes finally got no homework or people needing him, yet it turns out bad and in the end so early he has to leave
-sigh sigh sigh-

so yeah..
im just here writing and texting Tom and Kayla
Kayla cant hang out cause shes sick
so i might go eat dinner now that the rice is ready
do my homework (biology and algebra two)
then take a shower and read 'The Magician' by Micheal Scott
its a good book =)
Natalie.. Annie.. you should read it~

well imma head off
i hope tomorrow after track practice i get to hang out with Gage for a little while
=)
or if not just go with Kayla, after she's done hanging out with bret


adiose!!
(doubt i wrote -smaller- XD)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Subject: BRING on the rain
~~&& bring on the thunder <333~~




just edited my blogspot page
and BOII do i love it
if i'm already doing so much for it, that means i'll be surely staying on it
<33
which is good
HAZAAA
and Manda found out Annie; my biatch also has a blogspot
YAY!!
<333333


well heres what i gotta say for today
-sigh-
my knees still fucked up from last Thursdays track training
stupid thing couldnt bend so i couldnt walk
and yesterday i thought it was awesome going back to track training
AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW!!
it fucks up again ==
but not too much, just a lil
BUT STILL
it hurts like a mother fucker and i cant do much
-cries-
and today was also kinda bad cause i was being a stupid fuckwit and stayed silent
which made Gage worry a lil about me
but what can i say?
i dont wanna always complain to him about my problems
i should, but this is so small and we already talked about it
im basically depressed about how fucked up my body is
with the knee and all
and i already told him and he helped me out
but still i just cant help thinking that maybe Putman (my coach) is gonna kick me out
..well not kick me out but take me fof the team cause hes worried sick about me
unlike other coaches, Putmans awesome
hes someone i would look up to :)

but yeah..
i just hate it
cause last time i did this i got sciatica when i continued
at least this time i'm more healthy, skinny and fit
but i just cant help thinking another part of my bodies fucked
-sigh-
&& i really hate being on the side lines and just watching everyone else have fun
and it especially broke me apart when gage told me to just go home
cause i felt like he didnt want me there and just wanted me to go cause i was useless and there was no point in going
sure, fucking hell i am, but seriously..
but im sure he didnt mean it in that way, but in a way of that he wanted me to get better asap
but seriously.. i gotta say, sometimes what he does might not be what he thinks he says
also how he acts, can be really harsh when it isnt..
=_________=
but theres one thing that made my day today
the fact that i'm glad people in my track team dont say 'oh Amanda dont stay in track cause your already injured' and stuff like that
they say 'hey i know something that might help yah knee out' or 'get better and come train with us'
=) Manda's glad that theres good people in the team
everyones awesome, and i hope to do well with them

other than that..
god..
i miss Australia
cause here i have nothing to do!!
sure, i can hang with friends, Gage and computer
but computer i need something to do on it
friends.. my very closest friends all live in Olancha or Bishop or in Monturay Bay
and Gage, well for the past three weeks hes been either doing homework or hanging with his other friends
guess we gotta take our separate ways for a while =o=
AND DUE TO ALL THIS AM I BORED!!
heck yeah i should go do my story
but i just cant, not in the mood.. cause i like to do this when im happy
lately im just annoyed or depressed
which sucks =,=
so Manda misses Australia
cause in Australia
--i had many friends to hang with, and all were far yet easy to get to BY BUS!
--i could go to places like the city, shoppo, boxhill and all so easily
--no fucking cerfew, so i can be out in the streets round midnight and cops wont care
--places to explore with friends
--easy sleepovers, parties and drinking parties
--school was like always occupiying me even if i was bored
--I HAD MY OWN COMPUTER!!
here its just a struggle
its either i have to have homework, people or events to do unless i'll just be bored
sure this boredom is making me read more
but i dont like forceful reading..
so it sucks

but i gotta say
i truthfully dont regret being here
despite how much of a sacrifice to leave my good friends and all
being here changed me for the better
sure, the last month in Australia is where i actually changed
thats because i opened up myself more since i needed to for my friends
i experienced new events (serious sleepovers, parties, nighclubbing, hanging with close buddies for hours on end, hook-up XD)
and it made me see the fun i could be having in life
heck yeah im sure all my friends who were with me during the last month i had could say the same thing
but coming here with this new experience made me into a better person
and a better person is what i truthfully wished for for a long time
so yeah :)

coming here made me find the one i've been looking for
who is of course my boyfriend Gage :) <33
im kinda truthfully saying how much he means to me here since he wont see it
(&& if anyone shows him i'll deck you!!)
but yeah
back in oz i fell hard for a guy named Alex
im sure whoevers reading this knows him very well
since i've liked him for like, a year and a half?
but yeah..
and even though as hard as i tried to get with him, and even with my friends help, i always failed misserbally
cause i could never have the guts to talk to him and never could i even ask him out, i couldnt even ask him for help in math!!
and for all these years of hoping just to find out that he would never consider to see me as someone to even be friends with
since, like many guys back in oz, they judge people terribly
its like, a thing for them!
their idea girl has to like girls from a magazine, its just so stupid
and so he was just 'a dream' to me since i would always dream about him and in reality always wish he'd notice me
my love life seemed like a fantasy, so i would have never considered to do anything until i was in college
yet knowing most teenagers around here, they would want to at least experience this at least once, even if it may fail or not
so i was always a hopeful girl finding love, and yet to be broken seriously by another guy who'd i'd fallen for
STUPID.... i dont even wanna say his name but readers will recognise him already, was someone that would have made me not even consider getting a boyfriend till i gradutaed college
the things hes done to me.. was just terrible.. tight, cold, whatever!
after seeing him at Lihn's party, i started to get closer with him
sure, i knew who he was, but after that party we were just like good buddies
and after knowing him and always talking to him i developed feelings for him
sure, the thought that he wouldnt wanna go out with me always popped in my head, but after Maria/Steph's birthday party that changed for me
cause during that whole time we were talking and he was always being around me, i felt as if something could happen
and even during Minus 18 underage night club (which was a bomb) did he always hang with me, and my friends give me vibes saying that he liked me
....come on, if a guy starts dancing with you more than others, always gave eye contact with yah and kept touching you and mucking around with you.. wouldn't this be a sign?
but then during a drunk night at my place, i confessed to him just to be harshly rejected by saying that i wasnt his type, he doesnt want me as a girlfriend, he thinks he will break up with me easily even if we become bf gf and the fact that he lectured me in how hes acts in relationships which was sweet and all and then saying it wont suit me...
boy did it hurt
and also when we returned back to the drunk night party which then turned into a sleepover did i discover that he 'apparently' was doing all this shit with my friend and hit on my best friend did it hurt me more
and this was like... right right after my confession
he didn't say sorry but just said it harshly
HE WAS AN ASS

so yeah..
when i started developing feelings a lot for Gage in the last month before coming to Australia
did i think it was hopeless
LIKE SERIOUSLY
someone from Aus who watches American drama could obviously see that American guys 'apparently' are more picky in girls
did i think me being with Gage was like how i felt with Alex
impossible..
like seriously... i was dead serious
ESPECIALLY when i came down here and saw him first thing when i came back from the airport
wow.. i thought to myself 'no way would i get with him' -slaps self- 'give it up'
so i wanted to just be good friends with him at least, cause seriously i didnt think it was possible!
and the weeks that went by always hanging with him, the feelings were just gonna explode
i never felt this way for a guy EVER
maybe was it because i was always hanging with him? was it because i was in a different environment? who knows!
i just.. feel hard for him
yet i wanted these feelings to stop, cause it felt impossible for a guy as good as him to like me
DESPITE THE RUMORS THAT WENT AROUND THAT HE LIKED ME
from KAORU (whos hes best friend) and ASHLEII (a girl he talks a lot who knows me)
and when my birthday was drawing near
all i wanted was for me to at least hang out with him, and hope he wished me a happy birthday and gave me a hug :) cause his hugs are awesome
but never in the world did i expect to see him confess to me
i felt like slapping myself silly, asking if this was just a dream
but it wasnt! so he almost made me wanna cry
but i didnt, cause imma bum XD


ahh i feel like im rambling about him
i promise this will be the only rambling ill do for Gage
-shot-
i cant help it though..
Manda loves him so :)
Manda's luckii that shes got Gage
cause hes like, wow, what ever girl could ever want in a guy
like seriously
but yeah, hes mine :D
i wonder what he liked about me that others couldnt see
i wonder..


.....now i dont remember what i was even talking out
-shot-
hahahah
oh well
its getting late
all mah Australia muzzatech buddies should be on soon
so ill stop here





i promise ill write little next time
=D

Sunday, February 22, 2009
Subject: THE beginning
&& im sure i'll be sticking to this longer than me and my xanga
cause xangas like.. dead
and this is cooler
cause my good fucking awesome best bud Natalie is here
and same with Banessa

so Manda'll stay here to;;
-rant
-rave
-random talk
-do whatever
cause i enjoyed my xanga before it turned gay
...and i really need it...

so for now i'll start of with a GET TO KNOW ME!
=O!!!
haha
which was stolen off Nat btw~




Getting to know me

Name: AGhearts a.k.a Amanda

Nickname: Manda ; AG ; Amangorine

Birth-date: 1991

Birthplace: Japan

Hometown: i still call Melbourne home..

Eye colour and Hair colour: brown x2

Occupation/School: junior student at Lone Pine High School ;; pre year 12 student in Doncaster Secondary College

Right or Left handed: right, but can be left handed


Favourite

Color: white

Animal: canines

Cartoon: always enjoy a little Family Guy

Song: "Thunder" by BOYS LIKE GIRLS

TV Shows: NCIS ;; Scrubs ;; Psych

Movie: ehh.. dont really have a fav

Sport: anything that involves smacking a ball

Team: lol Richmond tigers!!

Actress/Actor: lol don't really have a fav

Musician: Synyster Gates :]

Street: fucking any Melbourne city street!!

Comedian: Annie <33>

Food: sushi and taro buns.. miss them both :( then again theres flaming hot cheetoes

Drink: arizona bitches!!

Number: nine ;; ten ;; nineteen

Book/Graphic Novel: Deltora Quest series

Season: winter baby biatches

Hobbies: hanging out with friends ;; myspace'in ;; edit computer things ;; being with my boyfriend ;; listening to music ;; having as much fun as possible


Have you ever…

Gotten drunk? yeah i have, and the times that i've been drunk were the bestest times in my life <33>

Taken drugs? only the good ones

Gotten arrested? only for a good cause..

Gotten into an accident? yeah..

Gotten into a fight? both physical and mental

Fears: butterflies/moths ;; failure

Important possessions: my mobile (to call/txt people) ;; my ipod (for entertainment) ;; my sanity (in order to live dammit!)

Pet Peeve: people breaking promises ;; people telling lies ;; sluts ;; man/whores ;; cancelling plans last minute

Tattoos: will get one later

Piercings: left lip


Thoughts on…

Abortion: it can be very useful

Gay Marriage: sure, whats so wrong about it?

Gun Control: making a rule like taking a fucking drivers test

God: i dont believe in God, cause i dont see him and see what he's done for people.. yeah i hear the stuff but how can i believe something that doesn't exist does this stuff?

Aliens: i believe were not alone in this universe


About Me;;

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who i am is what i have become ; and what i've become is who i am

seventeen forever ;; taken, sorry guys ;; current residence in Lone Pine, CA ;; junior yet year 12 at heart ;; still calls Australia home ;; has the bestest friends any person could ask for ;; taller than your average girl



Archive;;

February 2009 l March 2009 l June 2009 l July 2009 l August 2009 l

Friends;;



Music;;

Alesana

All American Rejects

All That Remains

All Time Low

Anberlin

Avenged Sevenfold

Behind Crimson Eyes

Boys Like Girls

Breaking Benjamin

Bring Me The Horizon

Celldweller

Cobra Starship

Daft Punk

A Day To Remember

Dsturbed

Escape The Fate

Fall Out Boy

From Autumn To Ashes

The Getaway Plan

Head Automatica

Hellogoodbye

Hollywood Undead

Ice Nine Kills

Jason Mraz

Killswitch Engage

Linkin Park

Madina Lake

Mayday Parade

Metro Station

My American Heart

The Offspring

PANIC! At The Disco

The Presets

Relient K

Senses Fail

SLIPKNOT

System Of A Down

There For Tomorrow

Tokio Hotel

Trapt

Trivium

The Used

The Veronicas

We The Kings



Youtube;;

"Thunder" by BOYS LIKE GIRLS

Links

Myspace
Deviantart
Playlist


Design

Coding and Graphic Design by salcha4u.
However, brush credits DO NOT go to me.