okai
fuck life
i officially give up on guys
like seriously officially, not even gonna bother getting a boyfriend maan
cause serious guys are so CONFUSING and all they do is fuck up your life
i might even take Natalie's advice
"you should date girls, not so confusing as guys"
like fucking seriously
==
ive literally ignored Gage for 3 days
due to work and him getting an online xbox account and shit
and the day he finally says "can we hangout" it turns out to be a walk around town talking about how hes moving like 15min away from me and cant find a way to get into town and so got him thinking about him being 2 hours away from me, rarely seeing me and saying "i just dont wanna gf anymore (once again), im not happy with it since me walking an hour to town just to see you and all we do is just hangout as if were friends isnt satifying me"
-shot-
so fuck you Gage
i gave you a chance to get me again
saying "im only gonna go out with you if you know 100% you can be with me no matter what"
"yes manda i really do"
and next thing i hear is
"i thought i knew, but now i cant, im sorry"
fuck the male species
they're so gay
fuck Lone Pine guys, or whatever the shit
all they want is stupid shit
UGH
i AM coming home
home fucking sweet home
good news?
probably by start start of next month im buying the tickets
so dates will be comfirmed soon
<333
bla bla blabidy shit
:D
I BELIEVE
that the world ends with you
so live your life to what you can do in order to end it with YOU and YOU alone
:)
ive officially decided what to do with the whole Gage thing
and i like to take my friends advice
so Gage;; SCREW YOU
ive giving you like 6 chances to get me back
4 of them you took, 2 of them you lost
i give up on guys
all i wanna do now is plan on going home
i believe that i truthfully wanted to stay here for him and him alone
since he promised me a college future of always seeing each other and loving each other
which i would of like, but i believe that we would be together yet fail
because truthfully. hes so immature with relationships
==
he doesnt even know the basics, he just does what he wants to do
which doesnt work for me
so guys
for now
im planning on going home :)
but like i say, its so early for me to decide
because imma be graduating in like a year from now
><
i may wanna stay here for uni purpose
(obviously not Gage, i promise!)
but i will rest assure that i will come home to visit sometime this year
and i will be partying and saying hi to everyone i love
<3
for now im just gonna try and live my life here in stupid Lone Pine
with retarded men and slutty girls
-sigh-
but i will say
that i believe that Gage, despite what im gonna say to him soon
he will come back to me, and yeah, i guess i will
but not now, i want it to be when hes officially ready for me
:)
after college, all that shit
and if he agrees
then i have no ties here in the US
ill go home
<3
..maybe i should do that..
cause i miss you guys
<3
BUT THIS IS THE LAST TIME IM GONNA BRAG ABOUT HIM
cause im over him ==;;
but to answer you guys quetsion
"why is he hanging with the bitch ex-girlfriend"
they dated for only a day, then had to break up since she left the country
EYE can understand why he so wants to see her
and i dont care
if he ends up liking her a lot and not me, well then screw him
but they havent seen each other in 8 years
imagine that? i would wanna meet up with my first boyfriend if that happened to me
it hurts yes. but its understandable
i have nothing against her
just Gage
==
okay enough about him
<3
ily guys!
ill be looking forward in coming home~
that the world ends with you
so live your life to what you can do in order to end it with YOU and YOU alone
:)
ive officially decided what to do with the whole Gage thing
and i like to take my friends advice
so Gage;; SCREW YOU
ive giving you like 6 chances to get me back
4 of them you took, 2 of them you lost
i give up on guys
all i wanna do now is plan on going home
i believe that i truthfully wanted to stay here for him and him alone
since he promised me a college future of always seeing each other and loving each other
which i would of like, but i believe that we would be together yet fail
because truthfully. hes so immature with relationships
==
he doesnt even know the basics, he just does what he wants to do
which doesnt work for me
so guys
for now
im planning on going home :)
but like i say, its so early for me to decide
because imma be graduating in like a year from now
><
i may wanna stay here for uni purpose
(obviously not Gage, i promise!)
but i will rest assure that i will come home to visit sometime this year
and i will be partying and saying hi to everyone i love
<3
for now im just gonna try and live my life here in stupid Lone Pine
with retarded men and slutty girls
-sigh-
but i will say
that i believe that Gage, despite what im gonna say to him soon
he will come back to me, and yeah, i guess i will
but not now, i want it to be when hes officially ready for me
:)
after college, all that shit
and if he agrees
then i have no ties here in the US
ill go home
<3
..maybe i should do that..
cause i miss you guys
<3
BUT THIS IS THE LAST TIME IM GONNA BRAG ABOUT HIM
cause im over him ==;;
but to answer you guys quetsion
"why is he hanging with the bitch ex-girlfriend"
they dated for only a day, then had to break up since she left the country
EYE can understand why he so wants to see her
and i dont care
if he ends up liking her a lot and not me, well then screw him
but they havent seen each other in 8 years
imagine that? i would wanna meet up with my first boyfriend if that happened to me
it hurts yes. but its understandable
i have nothing against her
just Gage
==
okay enough about him
<3
ily guys!
ill be looking forward in coming home~
1. I've come to realize that my ex....still wants to be with me, yet is worried about his jc college is gonna be hard on him (which is like frigging tafe)
2. I am listening... "No More Room To Breathe" by There For Tomorrow
3. I talk...a friggin lot when i'm drunk xD
4. I love...drinking <3
5. My best friends...so frigging awesome
6. My enemies hate me because...i either take attetion from people they want attention from ; or they just hate me
7. I lost...the best boyfriend ive ever had :(
8. I hate it when people...just go to parties for sex
9. Love is...awesome yet shitty
10. Marriage...can go screw a funeral
11. Someone, somewhere, is thinking...about Pandachuu
12. I'll always be...Amanda
13. I have a crush...on two guys, sucks cause one of them is all the way in Australia and the other broke up with me ==
14. The last time I cried was because...today, was so confused
15. My mobile is the...retarded piece of shit
16. Before I go to sleep at night...i like to think
17. When I wake up in the morning...i snuggle my pillow
18. Right now I am thinking...that he will most likely not consider going out again
19. Babies are...aliens O.o
20. I go on facebook...like everyday xD
21. Today I...ended up lying next to Dustin, whos like a heavy snorer ==
22. Tonight I...will head off to bed early, so wastedd
23. Soon I will...slap a hoe for Franco
24. I really want...him to consider ><
25. The person who is most likely to re-post this...Banessa :D
2. I am listening... "No More Room To Breathe" by There For Tomorrow
3. I talk...a friggin lot when i'm drunk xD
4. I love...drinking <3
5. My best friends...so frigging awesome
6. My enemies hate me because...i either take attetion from people they want attention from ; or they just hate me
7. I lost...the best boyfriend ive ever had :(
8. I hate it when people...just go to parties for sex
9. Love is...awesome yet shitty
10. Marriage...can go screw a funeral
11. Someone, somewhere, is thinking...about Pandachuu
12. I'll always be...Amanda
13. I have a crush...on two guys, sucks cause one of them is all the way in Australia and the other broke up with me ==
14. The last time I cried was because...today, was so confused
15. My mobile is the...retarded piece of shit
16. Before I go to sleep at night...i like to think
17. When I wake up in the morning...i snuggle my pillow
18. Right now I am thinking...that he will most likely not consider going out again
19. Babies are...aliens O.o
20. I go on facebook...like everyday xD
21. Today I...ended up lying next to Dustin, whos like a heavy snorer ==
22. Tonight I...will head off to bed early, so wastedd
23. Soon I will...slap a hoe for Franco
24. I really want...him to consider ><
25. The person who is most likely to re-post this...Banessa :D
well heres the update on the shit been going on
Gage and i really do like each other
were just still not going out because hes worried that going to a junior college will be more difficult on him
(junior college is like a TAFE program)
as well as a full time job
and he thinks that having those two and being in a relationship is hard
..yet if it isnt he'll come back to me..
which is a good thing
and the chances are highh
but.. ugh..
hes texting his ex girlfriend a lot lately
understandable since they havent talked or seen each other in 8 years, yeah?
but he still has small feelings for her ;; and i get the feeling she does too
yet she has someone she really loves and Gage really loves me
but then again, both were each others first love
and as they say
"you can never, ever get over your first love"
so life sucks..
and shes like, coming to Lone Pine this month
which sucks more.. cause hes promised he'd spend a lot of time with her
and i just dont wanna be here to see her and him together
even though today we argued and he said 'i love you more'
and proved it by finally kissing me after 2 weeks
it still is like wishful thinking..
and if i dont end up being with Gage, i do wanna come back to aus
but somethings telling me to stay
somethings telling me that staying here would be better for me
iunno if its because Gage wants to plan college together, or its because University of California in San Diego looks so badass than Melbourne
..like seriously guys, and they say its the party top school in california!!
and i fucking love parties <33
so yeah
im still considering going back home to go to uni and all, i would be much happier
but i think going to america is like, a chance to redeem myself
be a better person
even though i was back home, as in the future
its like a sign, but iunno
still have to think about it ==
but i do promise ill be back for a whole month to PARTAY
and go to minus18 kinda things ;)
i promise Natalie
and of course Banessa we shall like invade Melbourne Central with our awesomeness <33
or you could take me to a cool karaoke place!!
i do wanna go home.. but i think australia is more like my 'freedom' place.. not my 'reality' place
Gage and i really do like each other
were just still not going out because hes worried that going to a junior college will be more difficult on him
(junior college is like a TAFE program)
as well as a full time job
and he thinks that having those two and being in a relationship is hard
..yet if it isnt he'll come back to me..
which is a good thing
and the chances are highh
but.. ugh..
hes texting his ex girlfriend a lot lately
understandable since they havent talked or seen each other in 8 years, yeah?
but he still has small feelings for her ;; and i get the feeling she does too
yet she has someone she really loves and Gage really loves me
but then again, both were each others first love
and as they say
"you can never, ever get over your first love"
so life sucks..
and shes like, coming to Lone Pine this month
which sucks more.. cause hes promised he'd spend a lot of time with her
and i just dont wanna be here to see her and him together
even though today we argued and he said 'i love you more'
and proved it by finally kissing me after 2 weeks
it still is like wishful thinking..
and if i dont end up being with Gage, i do wanna come back to aus
but somethings telling me to stay
somethings telling me that staying here would be better for me
iunno if its because Gage wants to plan college together, or its because University of California in San Diego looks so badass than Melbourne
..like seriously guys, and they say its the party top school in california!!
and i fucking love parties <33
so yeah
im still considering going back home to go to uni and all, i would be much happier
but i think going to america is like, a chance to redeem myself
be a better person
even though i was back home, as in the future
its like a sign, but iunno
still have to think about it ==
but i do promise ill be back for a whole month to PARTAY
and go to minus18 kinda things ;)
i promise Natalie
and of course Banessa we shall like invade Melbourne Central with our awesomeness <33
or you could take me to a cool karaoke place!!
i do wanna go home.. but i think australia is more like my 'freedom' place.. not my 'reality' place
so yeah..
FML
-shot-
FML
-shot-
='(
me and Gage broke up yesterday
Manda's very sad
since he only broke up with Manda because Manda wants to go to uni back at home
and Gage doesn't wanna be with Manda unless Manda's staying in the US
so Manda doesnt know what to do..
she wouldnt mind staying here, living with Gage for her uni life
but the uni's that are closest to Gage are San Diego State Univeristy (which i heard is crap) and Univeristy of California of San Diego (which costs a lot!)
and Manda would have an easier life back at home since she knows the place and its more cheaper
yet Manda doesnt know which path to take
i'm happy with either way i go, but whatever path i take i lose something
USA ;; i wont be home, but i'll be with Gage living with him
AUS ;; ill be back home having an easy life, yet Gage will give up on me
=(
Manda doesnt know what to doo..
Natalie, Annie, Banessa.. what do you think?
i'm happy with both options, but dunno what to sacrifice
Gage or Australia
><
(&& here's your update Nat)
me and Gage broke up yesterday
Manda's very sad
since he only broke up with Manda because Manda wants to go to uni back at home
and Gage doesn't wanna be with Manda unless Manda's staying in the US
so Manda doesnt know what to do..
she wouldnt mind staying here, living with Gage for her uni life
but the uni's that are closest to Gage are San Diego State Univeristy (which i heard is crap) and Univeristy of California of San Diego (which costs a lot!)
and Manda would have an easier life back at home since she knows the place and its more cheaper
yet Manda doesnt know which path to take
i'm happy with either way i go, but whatever path i take i lose something
USA ;; i wont be home, but i'll be with Gage living with him
AUS ;; ill be back home having an easy life, yet Gage will give up on me
=(
Manda doesnt know what to doo..
Natalie, Annie, Banessa.. what do you think?
i'm happy with both options, but dunno what to sacrifice
Gage or Australia
><
(&& here's your update Nat)
don't tell friends to read twilight........
OMG IM SO SORRY ANNIE!!!!!!!
What is your favourite TV show?
SUPERNATURAL!!!
Can you roll your tongue?
yeah biatch!! =O Annie you cant roll your tounge?
Who is the funniest person you know?
lol... theres many :) im basically surrounded by funny people
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
just a teddy bear
Where were you last night?
in my room
Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
.....no
Do you dye your hair?
hell yeahh
Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
i like to save water =D
Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
closed bro, need darkness
Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer bees?
a big bear, easier to kill
Who have you talked to most today in person?
Aleana :)
OMG IM SO SORRY ANNIE!!!!!!!
How old will you be in 10 months?
eighteen <3>
Do you think you'll be married by then?
"wtf NO i'm not BELLA (moron)"
i second that =]
What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
summer holidays <3
Who was the last person to call you?
Ashleii
What's your ringtone?
Shake It by METRO STATION
Do you have any pets?
three doggies
What were you doing at 2am last night?
sleeping fool
Are your parents married/divorced/separate?
married yo
When is the last time you saw your sister/s?
shes sitting right next to me ya
What happened at 10.
i was TEN :O!!
How many states have you lived in?
three
How many cities/towns have you lived in?
four
Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare feet?
sockies for now
Are you a social person?
depends if YOU are
What was the last thing you ate?
an orange :)
What is your favourite ice creams?
mint biatch
What is your favourite dessert?
ICECREAM!! lolol
What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & j sandwhiches?
strawberriez
Do you like coffee?
"EW NO KILLER DRINK"
lolgasm
What do you drink in the morning?
tea yaaa!
Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
in the corner
Do you know how to play poker?
kinda now, Gage taught me :)
Do you eat out or at home more often?
eh, home
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Aleana and Dylan
Do you know any other languages?
japanese and some german
Have you been in an ambulance?
...yeah, suckii aint it?
Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
pool! ocean scares me :(
Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
window seat
Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
tried, and epic fail.. the passengers were shit scared xD
What is your favourite thing to spend money on?
movies ; food ; going somewhere with friends
Do you wear any jewelry?
just a lip pierce dude
eighteen <3>
Do you think you'll be married by then?
"wtf NO i'm not BELLA (moron)"
i second that =]
What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
summer holidays <3
Who was the last person to call you?
Ashleii
What's your ringtone?
Shake It by METRO STATION
Do you have any pets?
three doggies
What were you doing at 2am last night?
sleeping fool
Are your parents married/divorced/separate?
married yo
When is the last time you saw your sister/s?
shes sitting right next to me ya
What happened at 10.
i was TEN :O!!
How many states have you lived in?
three
How many cities/towns have you lived in?
four
Do you prefer shoes, socks or bare feet?
sockies for now
Are you a social person?
depends if YOU are
What was the last thing you ate?
an orange :)
What is your favourite ice creams?
mint biatch
What is your favourite dessert?
ICECREAM!! lolol
What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & j sandwhiches?
strawberriez
Do you like coffee?
"EW NO KILLER DRINK"
lolgasm
What do you drink in the morning?
tea yaaa!
Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
in the corner
Do you know how to play poker?
kinda now, Gage taught me :)
Do you eat out or at home more often?
eh, home
Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
Aleana and Dylan
Do you know any other languages?
japanese and some german
Have you been in an ambulance?
...yeah, suckii aint it?
Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
pool! ocean scares me :(
Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
window seat
Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
tried, and epic fail.. the passengers were shit scared xD
What is your favourite thing to spend money on?
movies ; food ; going somewhere with friends
Do you wear any jewelry?
just a lip pierce dude
What is your favourite TV show?
SUPERNATURAL!!!
Can you roll your tongue?
yeah biatch!! =O Annie you cant roll your tounge?
Who is the funniest person you know?
lol... theres many :) im basically surrounded by funny people
Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
just a teddy bear
Where were you last night?
in my room
Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
.....no
Do you dye your hair?
hell yeahh
Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
i like to save water =D
Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
closed bro, need darkness
Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer bees?
a big bear, easier to kill
Who have you talked to most today in person?
Aleana :)
lol...
watching James and Chris stable cups in the ceiling is very amusing
=D
currently in agriculture.. bored >
Manda hurt her knee again..
it hurts like fuck..
and i didnt even do anything!
i was just sitting down on the floor with my back against the wall
then got up as i heard a POP on my right knee then couldnt walk on it anymore
==
fuck this
well the other days werent very interesting since i didnt do much
othee than saturdays sleepover at Kayla's as we went to the Comofrt Inn (hotel) at 1am where my friend Melvis was working as we made some waffles!!!
but yesterday was a hectic day.. like seriously..
me ; Gage ; Kaoru ; Aleana ; Lewis went gto go see WATCHMEN
which was good and all
but after that when i went to get subway i suddenly had as Aleana called a 'mood swing' and was suddenly depressed for no reason
i didnt know what it was, but it was so bad..
Gage noticed and asked whats wrong, and i told him nothing cause i didnt know and thought it would go away
he obviously thought i was lying and kept asking until i told him it was nothing, trying not to make him worry
but after that he got angry at me as everyone else went to tace bell to eat
he ignored me but i didnt realise it cause i kept on huddling into a ball tryna think what the hell is wrong with me
and when i finally realised did i get more depressed cause he didnt wanna sit next to me and i tried to tell him not to worry and that i didnt even know but he got more angry saying that im lying to him
and going back from the cinemas home was depressing cause he wouldnt talk and he got angry at everyone..
><
but when we came back i apologised more and he said hes sorry for getting angry as i told him more about whats wrong with me as he understood
and thats basically it for me
other than the fact that im missing out on school cause of my fucked up knee
and imma go play Final Fantasy XII now
:)
byeee
it hurts like fuck..
and i didnt even do anything!
i was just sitting down on the floor with my back against the wall
then got up as i heard a POP on my right knee then couldnt walk on it anymore
==
fuck this
well the other days werent very interesting since i didnt do much
othee than saturdays sleepover at Kayla's as we went to the Comofrt Inn (hotel) at 1am where my friend Melvis was working as we made some waffles!!!
but yesterday was a hectic day.. like seriously..
me ; Gage ; Kaoru ; Aleana ; Lewis went gto go see WATCHMEN
which was good and all
but after that when i went to get subway i suddenly had as Aleana called a 'mood swing' and was suddenly depressed for no reason
i didnt know what it was, but it was so bad..
Gage noticed and asked whats wrong, and i told him nothing cause i didnt know and thought it would go away
he obviously thought i was lying and kept asking until i told him it was nothing, trying not to make him worry
but after that he got angry at me as everyone else went to tace bell to eat
he ignored me but i didnt realise it cause i kept on huddling into a ball tryna think what the hell is wrong with me
and when i finally realised did i get more depressed cause he didnt wanna sit next to me and i tried to tell him not to worry and that i didnt even know but he got more angry saying that im lying to him
and going back from the cinemas home was depressing cause he wouldnt talk and he got angry at everyone..
><
but when we came back i apologised more and he said hes sorry for getting angry as i told him more about whats wrong with me as he understood
and thats basically it for me
other than the fact that im missing out on school cause of my fucked up knee
and imma go play Final Fantasy XII now
:)
byeee
ARGH
i didnt post for like.. 4 days..
-shot-
so imma do something like Natalie
<33
FRIDAY 27th;;
one) next day (friday) woke up at 7 and went to school which started at eight..
two) had english where we reviewed about Authur Miller whos wrote the play/book were gonna study DEATHS OF A SAILSMAN
three) then had biology where we had a test.... ehh kinda easy kinda hard, didnt study, but i knew imma pass
four) break ;; hanged with Gage/Jordan/Adrian/Lewis/Aleana/Tom/Kady/Dylan/Nial/Sawyer/Jareth while we all did what we usually do and crowd around room 10 which is Mr L's classroom XD
five) computer/newspaper club.. didnt get to do much cause Gage and Jordan came from their english class and we talked and all, me and Jordan's planning on making Aleana into a smurf while Gage was busy with his interview webpage for his animation 'Virus'
six) algebra two with no Puttman =( had this teacher named Mr Dangelo who seemed like a druggie of a teacher who punished you with you name and a tick on the board XD
seven) lunchtime ;; finally decided to eat lunch where Jordan and Gage celebrated by adding an event in their calender that imma be eating lunch at the awesome subway today XD
eight) art class.. i had to do my graffiti drawing on the elementary school, its a cool dragon :D
nine) agriculture, went to the farm and had to get some wood out of the truck and place then in order of specific length of wood.... was fun cause like everyone was involved and it was something to do other than written work XD
ten) was suppose to go to track but due to ag was my shoulders sore (someone smacked me in the back) so i rand to gage saying im not going while he decided to ditched with me to his place
eleven) watched Nial watch some dude play pingpong on the computer then locked ourselves in Gages room having sexy time on HALO 2!!!!!!!! XD
twelve) played campaigne for a two hours then after that we... eheh... well lets say we havent hanged out alone just the two of us for two weeks so yeah xD make out session INNOCENT STYLE cause i was too busy laughing at how funny/cute his face is when he kisses, never realised cause my eyes were always shut
thirteen) was really tired due to lack of sleep the night before so kinda slept on his bed with him playing halo and poking me while i was sleeping
fourteen) after two hours realised it was seven and everyone tried to call me (phone was on vibrate) and invited Gage over for dinner
fifteen) had dinner ;; after Gage had to head home, then he told me hes heading to Las Vegas on sunday and wanted to hang the whole day with me tomorow ;; then he left
sixteen) went on msn to realised my friends found out something that i thought was cleared out ages ago.. ended up stayping up till 7am talking to them about it
seventeen) after the whole talk basically socialised with Franco, who oddly enough i miss than everybody else... maybe its because hes the only guy thats my friend who understands me better than any other guy? i dunno.. but it was to the point where i cried so much cause we were talking about xbox games like we used to everyday
SATURDAY 28th FEBRUARY
one) continued on from friday.. stayed up till 7am talking about serious stuff, and with Franco..
two) after seven slept yet woke up around 8 cause the family was loud.. had a very small breakfast and realised everyone except my dad were heading off to Ridgecrest.. stayed up till 12pm then had to sleep
three) dreaming about school back in Australia with all my friends and that i was going out with Alex and Gage was my bestest best friend that even though i was dating Alex i kissed him like in reality, it was a stupid yet good dream...... and i really hate admitting it, whats wrong with me sometimes?
four) woke up around 4:30pm and for a while thought about the dream, crying about how stupid it was seeing Alex there... then whe it was around 5pm texted Gage apologising for not hanging out sooner and asked to hang out, which he said okai
five) took a quick shower to fix up my attitude and clean myself up cause i felt oily.. and when i got changed he finally came yet he realised what was wrong, but i couldnt tell him so i mentioned the whole friend situation saying thats the problem.. he bought it and as usual made me very happy that i completely forgot about it :)
six) he brought his xbox while we played halo 2 again, owning people with master chief and the battle rifel!!! and during the time everyone else came back and lewis and aleana came up disturbing the crap outta us with their high pitch ness
seven) around seven Gage had to leave cause during the time i was asleep he was cleaning and packing to get ready for Las Vegas tomorrow in the afternoon, i was more sadened since i completely forgot yet he said he'd come as he left
eight) after that just came down stairs and hanged with mah mommi, cause shes a bumm~ but after an hour i was so tired and not in the mood for anything that i went to bed
nine) woke up in the middle of the night due to the dream and realised that Lewis and Aleana were in the room talking about what to do the next day, i wasnt very happy cause they kept on making a lotta noise so i barely got any sleep for 2 hours until Lewis finally left and Aleana went to bed.. and when i went to bed ended up having another stupid dream
SUNDAY 1st MARCH
one) woke up around 9 to get a text message from Gage asking if i was awake, which i really was cause i didnt get much sleep due to having another dream realted to the last one...... so i texted him back then he said he'd be here soon so i got up and took a shower
two) after i hanged with Aleana who was also awake to until Gage came moments later as we watched Dejavu
three) after the movie there was total silence while we just hugged ;; since we wont be seeing each other for a couple days, then after 20minutes he said he had to go while i walked him out while we kissed goodbye... after that i ran up to the bathroom and just cried cause this happened in my dream, yet after he left he never came back and Alex was there to help me out
four) after 5 minutes of crying for no effin reason, i pulled myself together and got the movie 'the reaping' and watched it with my mum... thought it'd be scary but it wasnt really.. and druing the whole time my mum didnt make me feel any better teasing me and acting couply with me cause she knows Gages gone, so i got pissed at her and all..
five) after the movie my mum had to cook while i started wtaching 'dont mess with a zohan' which was pretteh funny yet disgusting.. but i still laughed
six) when it was almost done Aleana came and asked to practice softball with her, i went and ended up listening to her talk about the situation my friends were talking about... the very thought of it made me angry while i told her my thoughts about it and all.. she ignored it after i mentioned it and we just practiced for an hour
seven) i finished watching zohan, which had a silly ending to it, then had a small amount of dinner (well it was a carls jr burger and i only had half of it.. its huge!) then Ashleii called for a while as we talked about Kaoru (she still likes him)/spring break heading to Montrary Bay to see her/other stuff and yeah
eight) after that i started texting Gage while watching street king with Aleana, he sent me a picture of him with his thumbs up with his grandmas bigass tv behind him while teasing me, it was funny and cute.. but i wasnt in the mood and felt offended that hes having fun without me, but after that he mentioned how much he wished i was with him, which saddened me more yet he was the first ever person to everknow what i loved to do best ;; which was go through the street lights in the dark, as he said he wanted to take me to the Las Vegas strip <33>nine) after a while i felt sleepy so i went to bed... slept for 3 hours (finally) but got awoken by his text message which said he was heading off to bed :) but after that i coudlnt sleep at all again..
MONDAY 2nd MARCH
one) dream was blank due to not even sleeping at all as i got ready for school ;; realised my eyes were blood shot while i washed my face and added some eye drops.. it worked
two) enlgish;; started reading the book.. i basically fell asleep in the class
three) biology ;; as i suspected i passed, with 80%, haha
four) break ;; it was so quiet i hated it.. so i hanged with Jordan and Adrian, they're cool~
five) computer/newspaper club ;; so boring that i just looked at xbox game images for killswitch2, left 4 dead, halo wars and F.E.A.R 2
six) algebra two ;; Putmans back! but i was annoyed i left Aleana and Adrian to be with Ruth and Romero.. i dunno then and i was too annoyed and sleepy to do any work that i let them do all of it, which i rarely do.
seven) lunch ;; as usual i always go with Gage, but hes not here so i went home for the first time this year.. which wasnt fun at all, had to be forced to eat which made me feel sick as usual when i eat at lunch
eight) art..... no fun without Gage as well, and Racheal wasnt there so it sucked more.. did nothing but doodle
nine) ag ;; went on the computers for tracker shit.. wasnt fun at all
ten) after school i was getting at least glad that i'll be doing track training, but found out i had to get a needle and all so i had to skip it... what sucked the most that we waited and found out it was the wrong date! FUCK
eleven) came home and got annoyed at how crappy the day was, so i started playing Shadow os Collisi hoping it would let my boredom go away, but guess what? its not even that good.. heck yeah its fun but the only enemies you see are bosses, AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON CAUSE THE LANGUAGE IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE MAIN CHARACTERS NAME!!! WHAT THE FUCK?
twelve) i gave up and came down stairs on the computer.. and texted a buncah people including Gage, i wanted to talk to him about all the shits thats been going on but after the basic intro which was like 4 text to each other he never texted back... so imma just give up with telling and wait till tomorrow, or not even mention it
thirteen) and now you see im on blogspot mentioned about these stuff~
basically been kinda crap.. and gheyy
im tired.. so i might take a shower and come back on msn and see if Steph/Annie/Franco will be on
ill wait till 11 and if they dont come ill head off to bed
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my days have been crappy since the weekend
how gheyy
i didnt post for like.. 4 days..
-shot-
so imma do something like Natalie
<33
FRIDAY 27th;;
one) next day (friday) woke up at 7 and went to school which started at eight..
two) had english where we reviewed about Authur Miller whos wrote the play/book were gonna study DEATHS OF A SAILSMAN
three) then had biology where we had a test.... ehh kinda easy kinda hard, didnt study, but i knew imma pass
four) break ;; hanged with Gage/Jordan/Adrian/Lewis/Aleana/Tom/Kady/Dylan/Nial/Sawyer/Jareth while we all did what we usually do and crowd around room 10 which is Mr L's classroom XD
five) computer/newspaper club.. didnt get to do much cause Gage and Jordan came from their english class and we talked and all, me and Jordan's planning on making Aleana into a smurf while Gage was busy with his interview webpage for his animation 'Virus'
six) algebra two with no Puttman =( had this teacher named Mr Dangelo who seemed like a druggie of a teacher who punished you with you name and a tick on the board XD
seven) lunchtime ;; finally decided to eat lunch where Jordan and Gage celebrated by adding an event in their calender that imma be eating lunch at the awesome subway today XD
eight) art class.. i had to do my graffiti drawing on the elementary school, its a cool dragon :D
nine) agriculture, went to the farm and had to get some wood out of the truck and place then in order of specific length of wood.... was fun cause like everyone was involved and it was something to do other than written work XD
ten) was suppose to go to track but due to ag was my shoulders sore (someone smacked me in the back) so i rand to gage saying im not going while he decided to ditched with me to his place
eleven) watched Nial watch some dude play pingpong on the computer then locked ourselves in Gages room having sexy time on HALO 2!!!!!!!! XD
twelve) played campaigne for a two hours then after that we... eheh... well lets say we havent hanged out alone just the two of us for two weeks so yeah xD make out session INNOCENT STYLE cause i was too busy laughing at how funny/cute his face is when he kisses, never realised cause my eyes were always shut
thirteen) was really tired due to lack of sleep the night before so kinda slept on his bed with him playing halo and poking me while i was sleeping
fourteen) after two hours realised it was seven and everyone tried to call me (phone was on vibrate) and invited Gage over for dinner
fifteen) had dinner ;; after Gage had to head home, then he told me hes heading to Las Vegas on sunday and wanted to hang the whole day with me tomorow ;; then he left
sixteen) went on msn to realised my friends found out something that i thought was cleared out ages ago.. ended up stayping up till 7am talking to them about it
seventeen) after the whole talk basically socialised with Franco, who oddly enough i miss than everybody else... maybe its because hes the only guy thats my friend who understands me better than any other guy? i dunno.. but it was to the point where i cried so much cause we were talking about xbox games like we used to everyday
SATURDAY 28th FEBRUARY
one) continued on from friday.. stayed up till 7am talking about serious stuff, and with Franco..
two) after seven slept yet woke up around 8 cause the family was loud.. had a very small breakfast and realised everyone except my dad were heading off to Ridgecrest.. stayed up till 12pm then had to sleep
three) dreaming about school back in Australia with all my friends and that i was going out with Alex and Gage was my bestest best friend that even though i was dating Alex i kissed him like in reality, it was a stupid yet good dream...... and i really hate admitting it, whats wrong with me sometimes?
four) woke up around 4:30pm and for a while thought about the dream, crying about how stupid it was seeing Alex there... then whe it was around 5pm texted Gage apologising for not hanging out sooner and asked to hang out, which he said okai
five) took a quick shower to fix up my attitude and clean myself up cause i felt oily.. and when i got changed he finally came yet he realised what was wrong, but i couldnt tell him so i mentioned the whole friend situation saying thats the problem.. he bought it and as usual made me very happy that i completely forgot about it :)
six) he brought his xbox while we played halo 2 again, owning people with master chief and the battle rifel!!! and during the time everyone else came back and lewis and aleana came up disturbing the crap outta us with their high pitch ness
seven) around seven Gage had to leave cause during the time i was asleep he was cleaning and packing to get ready for Las Vegas tomorrow in the afternoon, i was more sadened since i completely forgot yet he said he'd come as he left
eight) after that just came down stairs and hanged with mah mommi, cause shes a bumm~ but after an hour i was so tired and not in the mood for anything that i went to bed
nine) woke up in the middle of the night due to the dream and realised that Lewis and Aleana were in the room talking about what to do the next day, i wasnt very happy cause they kept on making a lotta noise so i barely got any sleep for 2 hours until Lewis finally left and Aleana went to bed.. and when i went to bed ended up having another stupid dream
SUNDAY 1st MARCH
one) woke up around 9 to get a text message from Gage asking if i was awake, which i really was cause i didnt get much sleep due to having another dream realted to the last one...... so i texted him back then he said he'd be here soon so i got up and took a shower
two) after i hanged with Aleana who was also awake to until Gage came moments later as we watched Dejavu
three) after the movie there was total silence while we just hugged ;; since we wont be seeing each other for a couple days, then after 20minutes he said he had to go while i walked him out while we kissed goodbye... after that i ran up to the bathroom and just cried cause this happened in my dream, yet after he left he never came back and Alex was there to help me out
four) after 5 minutes of crying for no effin reason, i pulled myself together and got the movie 'the reaping' and watched it with my mum... thought it'd be scary but it wasnt really.. and druing the whole time my mum didnt make me feel any better teasing me and acting couply with me cause she knows Gages gone, so i got pissed at her and all..
five) after the movie my mum had to cook while i started wtaching 'dont mess with a zohan' which was pretteh funny yet disgusting.. but i still laughed
six) when it was almost done Aleana came and asked to practice softball with her, i went and ended up listening to her talk about the situation my friends were talking about... the very thought of it made me angry while i told her my thoughts about it and all.. she ignored it after i mentioned it and we just practiced for an hour
seven) i finished watching zohan, which had a silly ending to it, then had a small amount of dinner (well it was a carls jr burger and i only had half of it.. its huge!) then Ashleii called for a while as we talked about Kaoru (she still likes him)/spring break heading to Montrary Bay to see her/other stuff and yeah
eight) after that i started texting Gage while watching street king with Aleana, he sent me a picture of him with his thumbs up with his grandmas bigass tv behind him while teasing me, it was funny and cute.. but i wasnt in the mood and felt offended that hes having fun without me, but after that he mentioned how much he wished i was with him, which saddened me more yet he was the first ever person to everknow what i loved to do best ;; which was go through the street lights in the dark, as he said he wanted to take me to the Las Vegas strip <33>nine) after a while i felt sleepy so i went to bed... slept for 3 hours (finally) but got awoken by his text message which said he was heading off to bed :) but after that i coudlnt sleep at all again..
MONDAY 2nd MARCH
one) dream was blank due to not even sleeping at all as i got ready for school ;; realised my eyes were blood shot while i washed my face and added some eye drops.. it worked
two) enlgish;; started reading the book.. i basically fell asleep in the class
three) biology ;; as i suspected i passed, with 80%, haha
four) break ;; it was so quiet i hated it.. so i hanged with Jordan and Adrian, they're cool~
five) computer/newspaper club ;; so boring that i just looked at xbox game images for killswitch2, left 4 dead, halo wars and F.E.A.R 2
six) algebra two ;; Putmans back! but i was annoyed i left Aleana and Adrian to be with Ruth and Romero.. i dunno then and i was too annoyed and sleepy to do any work that i let them do all of it, which i rarely do.
seven) lunch ;; as usual i always go with Gage, but hes not here so i went home for the first time this year.. which wasnt fun at all, had to be forced to eat which made me feel sick as usual when i eat at lunch
eight) art..... no fun without Gage as well, and Racheal wasnt there so it sucked more.. did nothing but doodle
nine) ag ;; went on the computers for tracker shit.. wasnt fun at all
ten) after school i was getting at least glad that i'll be doing track training, but found out i had to get a needle and all so i had to skip it... what sucked the most that we waited and found out it was the wrong date! FUCK
eleven) came home and got annoyed at how crappy the day was, so i started playing Shadow os Collisi hoping it would let my boredom go away, but guess what? its not even that good.. heck yeah its fun but the only enemies you see are bosses, AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS GOING ON CAUSE THE LANGUAGE IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT AND YOU DONT EVEN KNOW THE MAIN CHARACTERS NAME!!! WHAT THE FUCK?
twelve) i gave up and came down stairs on the computer.. and texted a buncah people including Gage, i wanted to talk to him about all the shits thats been going on but after the basic intro which was like 4 text to each other he never texted back... so imma just give up with telling and wait till tomorrow, or not even mention it
thirteen) and now you see im on blogspot mentioned about these stuff~
basically been kinda crap.. and gheyy
im tired.. so i might take a shower and come back on msn and see if Steph/Annie/Franco will be on
ill wait till 11 and if they dont come ill head off to bed
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my days have been crappy since the weekend
how gheyy
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